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HeavyMuffinsJournalTo Dillon,

September 27th, 2009

To Dillon,

Well... I almost want to say I was better off not knowing, but this sort of makes me feel better, I guess.

Part of me is thinking, that if you really thought I was out to cause you any grief or harm, then it's your own fault for looking for it. If I didn't respect your problems that you had, I wouldn't have toned it down, if you wanted it toned down more you could've fucking asked me to do it some more, I'd have had no objections.

How did you try to get me to stop talking to you? I don't recall any time in which you said "Can you not talk to me, you're bothering me with what you say," if you had just said that, maybe it'd have been something I could've actually done. I can't take fucking hints when I have no idea that I"m causing a problem.

If you really think, that I would've just berated you over this, and meant it in a negative way, then you're obviously not someone that knows me at all, and I"m sorry because I thought you did.

If you even read this, you know I doubt you will, I really do want to say thanks for being friends with me, we had a lot of good times and some laughs.

I really wish you luck with life, I love you man, I really do, and I wish shit didn't go down like this, because I kind of feel like a dick because this whole time I've just been thinking you've been busy with work or something, tactful your way of going about this was not, but that's just aside.

I hope you and Nicole are happy together, and stay happy, and I hope you don't have to face tough times like you have.

Bye indeed...

I need a drink....
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I hate being ignored, my ex did the same thing to me. I kept trying to see how he was doing, making sure he was okay because he'd fallen off the radar before. Finally caught up with him on his birthday and he told me that I couldn't take a hint and he was sick of me treating him like shit. I never treated him like shit. I kept trying to light a fire under his butt because he was doing absolutely nothing with his life.

Unfortunately he seems used to the bubble of delusion his family have erected around him due to their unwillingness to act and thinks anyone trying to help him is an attack. He'll never cut it in the real world, and quite frankly I honestly believe I would be better off if I didn't spend 7 years of my life on him, both in the 18 month relationship and the years of "friendship" afterwards.

You've gotta turn around, walk away, look up and take a deep breath. Cliches, I know.

Let the sunshine in.
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